To be honest, preggy symptoms this time around is the worst ever. Maybe not as bad as other people but it is enough to get me on my nerves. My abdomen feels uncomfortable , i feel like i wanna vomit all the time but i cant. I wanna burp all the time and it makes me sick. I am hungry, but the thought of eating will make me nauseous and will make me feel bloated i will feel awful again.
My asthma came earlier this time. I feel lethargic and exhausted as if i have hiked a mountain.
This is all the test that Allah put me through. In fact i should be grateful its not life threatening to me or my baby.
I feel lifeless, meaningless, all this depressing thoughts invading my mind. It hurts.
I need a break. A long break. All that happened is overwhelming for me. I cannot take it anymore. Of course i can push myself but what good does it do to me? I will hurt myself, my kids , my hubby. I have had enough.
Yesterday we went to visit Mokwan. Feeling nauseous i dont eat much. But seeing buah asam is so tempting. So i ate like the whole fruit. Although i KNOW that the consequences will be devastating(uncomfortable stomach,nauseated,bloated,gaseous)
I cry more nowadays. I told my husband that i cant bear this anymore. I just need a break.. 😢